School's not that bad.

I thought i'd hate high school - and i did in the beginning

but homework isn't as boring all of a sudden

and i really don't mind taking mobio notes

i took my first chapter test in math yesterday

and i know i got that last word problem right :) at least i hope so.

because my mom got the same answer as me

and my mom - wow. she's smart. i honestly don't think there was anybody smarter than her in her class at college haha

so anyway

i'm going to enjoy my weekend

no YO practice

no swim (i'm off of exercising this week)

and i might go to the cliff

and have a dressed up dinner with my girlfriends

and we might go to a very nice restaurant

while peer council students are having an ass of a time

at the back to school dance. hah nobody's going but its manditory for peer council.

and whoever's going, i'm pretty sure they'll all be freshman.

not me. and my friends. and the lovely half of my grade.

but the other half

seniors hate us

juniors hate us

sophomores hate us

(in the exception of some of them who are so beautifully kind)

who'd want to go to a dance

full of freshman? :)

Hey everyone.

Thanks for the good lucks and the take cares - i'm definitely feeling a lot better.

So turns out me and my mom got dengue

so we got hospitalized friday 

news:

dengue fever affects your plalette levels (i dunno how to spell it so dont ask - theyre the cells that are the first ones to clog up any bleeding in ur body)

well yeah it lowers it so basically people who have it totally serious can die from bleeding too much. my mom was lowered by 10% or so but that was fine 

i was a bit more serious than her

got down to 52,000 while usually you should have 90-100,000

i got scared hahah but no i'm not dying

i'm on an IV chord though - its putting water in me

i was dehydrated for a while and they wanna keep it there

so i took a bunch of pills

rested

got rashes - did not rest well, the IV thing is in the way too

took sleeping pills lol

and finally got internet - there's no internet in the rooms which sucks but i'm out in the lounge now

and i have tons of homework to catch up on :(

beijing olympics are what make my day.

and nice try singapore - you still GOT a medal.

korea was 2nd in the beginning

but now we're like, 6th or so.

michael phelps is amazing - and so are the other record breakers

and i love watching all the sports

except i still dont get how that one sprint biking thing goes - no need to explain though, i dont really care anyway haha

my sister is bak from beijing and it seems like she has had THE adventure :)

and i feel bad because today is her birthday, so she spent out with dad and my brother. looks like they had a great dinner though. but no presents from us :( well.. other than my parents' and my grandparent's $$ which is think will be sufficient haha

i miss everybody in YO (the only ppl reading) and i hope i'll see ya guys soon!!

An update on my recent sickness:

so i was feeling horrible and such

til yesterday when my brother got home after school. i was able to start on my homework (finally) until i got tired and wanted to sleep which was around 10pm.. 

and this morning i couldn't manage to go to class again so i stayed at home until second period (was stil 5 or 10 minutes late) and i got through my classes okay. i ate lunch (i usually dont have an appetite at all so eating 8 spoonfulls of noodle is a big step for me)

and then i come home

and my mom says she's got rashes ..

which means. she most likely

has

Dengue.

Which may mean that I have dengue as well (same mosquito or something)

so we got our blood samples taken and they'll be calling us tomorrow to tell us what's up.

i dont have rashes yet but since my mom's already suffering, i don't think i'd mind having dengue either.. :(

it's nothing serious, it can obviously be cured (only people with heart disease or other symptoms who get dengue - it may be fatal)

but it's so sad watching my mom try to hide how much the rashes itch and all.

hope everything gets better soon.

i'm sick.

horribly sick.

sunday - fever and i was sure i got it from my mom cuz she had the flu

monday - a tid bit better, good enough to go to school (and then die at home)

today? after half of first period i went to the nurse and didn't go back to class again, my mom picked me up and we went to the woodgrove family doctors. 

and guess what?

HE SAID I MIGHT HAVE DENGUE FEVER.

OMFG $^&**@#&*!@

but he's not sure because dengue fever - you have to have a fever constantly for 5 days and rashes appear (on the 4th of 5th day) and we can only make sure if i have a blood sample (on the 4th or 5th day) so this means either im going to get better.

or it means im going to be staying in the hospital after my 4th of 5th day.

:'( help mee

Went to open house at 9;15am - got my schedule and introduced myself to the very teachers that will make my freshman year miserable.

i got to see a lot of my old friends and such.

carrie wanted to meet me and amy in front of the highschool steps at 9am so we can see our teachers together - and carrie's the one who overslept - by an hour. and amy called the wrong number because someone told her that i was sleeping at 9;10 when i was waiting for the both of them, calling them like crazy when both of them wouldn't pick up. so i hung out with spencer for 40 minutes til amy finally showed up ><

and my schedule.. it has bunches of stars on it - stars on the classes that are adv. 

Molecular Bio, Chinese 3, Algebra II Trig, Studio Art, and String Ensemble.

I'm going to die. They're all such hard classes, I dont even know why i agreed with my teachers' suggestions. 

My teachers seem nice though. I think. I can't really tell lol

So far I only know that bridget, jimmy, and lauren are in the same free period as me. Thank God. and Jimmy's in the same Chinese as me. Thank God. 

I don't know anybody in my Alg 2 Trig yet, which sucks because if i'm left alone in that class, I'm not only going to die with failing grades, i'm going to be a LONER with sophomores and juniors.

Had cello lesson today - I'm pretty proud haha I've perfected my scales so far, still have to work on my pieces. and I'm going to fail my sight reading hahaha

so yeah. 

i'm going to die. ;)

Ciaoo

if you haven't already read my msn screen name

or my facebook status - i'll tell you here (again)

I SURVIVED MY LAST SWIM TRAINING AT OCC

And damn it was hard because today we used flippers - cept I couldn't use mine because i got really bad blisters (if you haven't already heard haha) but I guess I was going pretty fast for a person without flippers XD Okay i sound cocky now

But i'm so happy and relieved

and surprisingly a bit sad? i've worked so hard this summer, i've focused on swimming so much and i'm really proud of all the hard times i've been through (sounds pretty emotional just for swim practice haha). I've improved my times a lot and i've gotten closer with people, and i guess i'm just more confident? haha - stop making fun of me

tomorrow is singapore national day.. i don't think i'll be doing anything special. ive got some invites to hang out with syo peeps but it seems like i might not be able to make it to any of them :( maybe the CLIFF will be available for a little while though..? 

lol.. i'm never available. i go to someone's dinner party - i'm the first one to leave. go to any party - first one to leave. going to singfest - gotta leave early. everything early early early. hahaha.. i shouldnt be laughing cuz thats just sad. :S

Have a great national day

Ciao :)

School starts next week on Monday, August 11th. 

And I'm going to go into High school

And I might be trampled on and get food thrown on my head from the 2nd floor

being a freshman. But I think it's better than staying at home.. forever.

Me and Weile found a real neat spot 

for 'gal talk' haha.. sort of. You know in movies, when this character gets so stressed out with her parents or her boyfriend or whatever the heck she's pissed at, she stomps outside and she goes to her little spot on a grass hill by a pond or some lake where there's this nice big tree with a swing tied on to it, and she sees the sun slowly set while she reads a book or writes in her diary or journal..

Okay so the place WE found - is nothing like that.. hahahaha

and i can't walk there, I have to take the stupid mrt - 4 stops or so

BUT - it's not bad. it's this pond place with cliffs everywhere (i know, in SINGAPORE?!) and it might look a bit fake haha, but it's pretty nice and relaxing. 

I want to go back there before Monstrous Monday..

Ciao

i've been meaning to blog this

but i didn't really find the right time to.. 'til now.

i just wanted to tell everybody (or nobody) that I have been 

in the front

in the middle

in the end.

I've been first, average, and last.

I've been everywhere.. basically. Not in a haunting sort of way but in class, in music, in sports - and uh, I say this because swimming was the first thing that came in mind. I've gotten a gold medal in some swim competition, I've been average, and I've been last in practice - very last - very very very slowly last. And that happened today - i was very last. very slowly last.

Which really frustrates me because all the fastest swimmers are so good (obviously). The only trouble they have during swim practice is trying to beat their times.  I've had trouble just finishing the set. My muscles are always aching and I'm too embarrassed to ever come back to practice and swim again - with the same very very fastly first people (but yeah, i don't really have a choice but to go)

and i'm always wondering if i can ever be the best (at anything) again because i feel like that just totally skipped out in my life cuz everything i do i feel like ^&*(#$(*#@%. 

and i'm not surprised if anybody (or nobody) doesn't get a clue what i'm saying.

-still hoping everybody's life is better than mine.

ciao

since i'm behind on blogging on some 'grand' things that happened, i'll get right to it.

wednesday 6;30pm - 

original coach is still not here, so coach damien continues to sub.

so i get there, and we do sprints. 45623789235 x 50meter sprints. and i'm dying. i've never killed myself like that in swimming, honestly. he shouted at me a few times and i've never had him or my other coach shout at me like that ever. 

and i mean shout at me like THAT. ever.

i wont go through the details of every 50 meter i swam because there's too much to tell. 

so i get out of the pool after practice is over and we ended at 9;30 when we usually end 9;10pm, so all the pool lights were out even after we were continuing our swim.

and i don't say a word to my parents. we just walk to the car and i don't say ANYTHING cuz dammit i am exhausted and i was |--this--| close to crying.

so in the car on the way back home i'm usually sitting up and talking endlessly with my parents. that day lied down and i faced my back towards them and tears are rapidly coming out and i can't really do anything about it because they don't know and they won't know that i'm crying.

so we get out of the car and there's still no word coming out of my mouth.

i get online and i look for a specific friend and see if he's online.

he's not because he's spending his summer in the states.

so i keep crying and i dont really know what to do. oh and i locked my door.

so my dad knocks on my door and he asks me to unlock it.

he keeps asking why i locked the door because i never lock the door.

and i only opened the door enough so he would only see my face. and then i like

BURST into tears.

like

BURST. i didn't even know lolll

and then i sorta.. yeah. 

so that night i was zoned out (now that i realize)

and weird thing is, i rarely ever cry. i dont really cry. 

but i'm a pretty good crier when it comes to sad movies.

and that tells me that i'm pretty damn stressed. hahaha

so i couldn't sleep that night because my body was aching.

i couldn't/can't straighten my arms 

and i couldn't/can't raise them up

and that's about all you do in swimming other than breathing, kicking, rotating, and dying.

and well, yeah my whole upper body is aching.

i guess it's because i didn't train this hard and properly since i came back from italy.

thursday - got my hair straightened, watched a movie for free tickets.

today - died (once again), but not as bad as wednesday. my arms are still sore and they hurt like mother %^&*()#%!@ when i did my warm up. we do 400m IM which means butterfly and you can't expect someone to just get used to swimming butterfly when they can't straighten their frickin arms. but i didn't really have a choice right?

oh and i got 3 blisters. more like scars from my flippers, i forgot to bring tape to wrap around my foot. 

i have such a lovely summer..

but heads up - i only have 1 more week of dying til high school starts (no swimming at OCC). but then again, high school swim season starts beginning of the year so i'm still gonna die. i'll just die a bit later :)

hope everyone's having a better life than mine.